Rearranging with Hope.

Rearranging with Hope. 4/3/11

I felt change today.
It hurt.
Tore at my heart.
Caused tears to pour down my cheeks.
I felt a rearranging within me.
How uncomfortable.
I want comfort.
I want what has been.
The way things were.
The arrangement before things started to move around.
I want to hold on.
I won't let go!
Then the King of my heart walked in.
And told me it was going to be ok.
He reminded me of why things NEEDED to change.
He told me the new arrangement would be better.
I believed Him.
I wrapped my arms around Him and held Him close to me.
Hope.
He helps me to see.
That change isn't always easy.
But it's what's meant to be.
It's hard to let go.
Of what's been comfortable in me.
And around me.
But the future is bright.
He lit up the road ahead for me.
And He let me see.
The past was a stepping stone.
Never a permanent arrangement.
Things are always changing.
He helped me to see.
The changes get me to there.
Where I'm meant to be.
So if I don't let go.
I'll be stuck on a stepping stone.
I won't be able to see ahead.
At a future so bright.
Comfort will swallow me up.
I'll reject the change.
I'll settle.
It can't be an option.
Something to even ponder.
Because the King of my heart has a place for me.
It's bright.
It's Him.
So I'll feel the pain.
I'll let my heart be torn.
I'll embrace the tears on my cheeks.
I'll allow myself to weep.
I'll say goodbye to the old arrangement.
I'll mourn.
And then I'll take a step uncomfortably.
As Hope holds me.
And reminds me.
It's what's meant to be.
And He says "wait one more thing!"
He tells me He really Loves me.
I said "I know...
I remember.
You were there holding me when I left my family."
Hope.
Ahead.

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