I like your heart, 2/13/11

On Saturday nights, we meet in Arlington for a "house" bible study. And though I totally look forward for the day that I am with the masses, I thoroughly enjoy "house" bible studies. They are so relaxed and intimate. The pastor doesn't feel far away. I like that. And a lot of the people feel like family. Which I love.

(Since this is my blog, I can say whatever I want, and I really want to say this before I go on!)
I want to say that I just love my pastor (and his family). I am so thankful for him. I can't express in words to the Lord, how grateful I am that He led me to him. I adore his heart and hunger. I love his passion for the Lord. It's like a fanning to my flame. I fall in love with the revelation that he releases EVERY time. He brings the Lord to me time and time again in such a beautiful way. So I just want to say that I feel really blessed to have him over me. He has been a pastor to me, a friend and a big brother (his wife too!! and I absolutely love their children.) He has truly been a shepherd. And I say this because (1) This is "I like your heart" series. (2) I am about to write about a word released by him ast night, so I wanted to paint a picture of my relationship with him. He's great. The Lord is making him great. You know when Paul says "follow me as I follow Christ."? I get it. Because I love the Lord in Him. I love the spiritual fruit that I see. I love his heart that I know it's more and more the Lords. And I want that for myself. Not exact. We all have different anointings and giftings. But it's the hunger and passion and love. The confidence in his relationship with the Lord.

And I just want to say to all of you, that if you don't see fruit in your pastors life...if your pastor, man or woman, doesn't set you on fire for the Lord, by the revelation he releases, you should really rethink the system you are in. The word of God awakens. It opens your eyes and ears to Jesus Christ. And begins to transform you into His bride. Who starts to look like Him more and more as a relationship grows. It shouldn't be dead. At all. The Holy Spirit is alive. And if He is in your pastor and your pastor is in submission to the Holy Spirit and not his own mind, there should be a change happening within you. And then you should be beginning to develop a relationship with the Lord in your life everyday. It doesn't just stay at "church". It's your life. I'm just saying that because I want everyone to experience Jesus in a greater way. I really do.

Last night Pastor Wayland, released a word on the New Testament vs. The Old Testament. He wasn't AT ALL saying that the Old Testament is done away with. But that the New Testament reveals what the Old Testament was always meant to be. He got into 2 Cor 3. Talking about how their was/is a veil over the Old Testament. And with that veil on, the Israelites took what the Lord was trying to reveal to them literally. For instance....building a tabernacle for the Lord to dwell in. They missed it. Because what the Lord was trying to show them was, that they were to be the tabernacle that He dwelt in. But they built a natural tabernacle. Which I don't know if that was necessarily wrong. But that's where they stopped. They didn't see a picture of themselves. Also in 2 cor 3 Paul was revealing that WE are supposed to be The Book written on. Our hearts are supposed to be written on by the Holy Spirit. Others are supposed to see Jesus Christ written on our hearts. We are supposed to be "the message". The Bible was never meant to be something we just read. Or something we just get "knowledge" out of. It was never meant to be just words. Or something that sits on the shelf. That we pick up sometimes when we feel like. It was always supposed to be JESUS. The revelation of who He is. It's supposed to be alive. It was supposed to be written on people. So now we have to allow the Holy Spirit to remove the veils off of our minds, our eyes and ears. We have to allow the Holy Spirit to undress Jesus to us. And allow the revelation of what the Holy Spirit reveals to be written on our hearts. Not just knowledge in our minds. But experiencing who He is. In our lives. The Lord was trying to reveal Jesus to them, then. But they missed it. He doesn't want us to miss it anymore. He doesn't want us to go on without Him. He doesn't want to be on pages anymore. He wants to be in our hearts. He wants every false image of Himself to perish. Because that leads people to spiritual death. And natural destruction. And just because you might feel "ok" in your life right now, do you think that's all that God has for you? Not just naturally, but spiritually. A satisfaction for your soul that will go on into eternity. And just because you might feel "ok", there is ugly darkness all over the world, that the Lord doesn't desire to be here. Rape, molestation. Slavery. Suicide. Depression. Oppression. Stress that leads to physical illness. CANCER. Children being tortured and abused. Orphans. People ALL OVER feeling unloved and unwanted. Woman being taken, drugged and the sold for sex. That's NOT His desire. He wants to turn things back around from the first Adam. It's time for the second Adam. Not a fallen mankind. But a resurrected mankind. We have to wonder what we are ruled by. What moves us. What's in our minds and hearts? And the thing is, He wants to be that. Because the world looks like what rules us as mankind. He wants us to be His throne. I can't even fathom His desire for us. I can't at all. I want to! Because if I can understand that more and feel it, I know I will desire others more. I will want them as if He does. And it will drive me. To allow Him to rule in me. To write on me. And I can live showing people who Jesus really is. Giving them Life. Bringing them to safety. Loving them. Really, really loving them. Compassion for their souls. Our arms, His.

Because seriously? How can we just sit back being "ok" when others aren't. How is that even right? Don't we want to give? Don't we want to do something about it? We can!!! We can give ourselves to Jesus. Yehovah is Yasha (to be open, wide or free. To be safe. Free or Succor. Deliver. Help. Preserve. Rescue. Salvation. Save (-iour). Get victory. To be liberated. To save from moral troubles.) And we can work with Him. We can't do it on our own. And we need Him where we're not really "ok". And where we are confused. Or unsure. Or stuck. Where we feel like we just can't do "it". Whatever "it" may be. It's ok. Of course we can't do "it". That's where He comes in. That's where we say...I give up! I need You!! We can allow Him to Love on us. And breathe His Life in us. We can allow Him to put His salve on our wounds. To heal us and restore us. To help us forgive. To soften our hearts where they are rock hard. We can allow Him to shatter all we think that isn't His reality. So we can see Him clearly and know Him like we know our best friends. And bring that into the world. So darkness can be defeated. It's possible and it's gonna happen. It has happened, it is happening and going to happen in a greater way. He ended with this. "Jesus didn't die for us to go to Heaven, but for Heaven to come to Earth."

I was thinkin one day at nap time..."every day these kids can experience the Lord through me." I want that! They deserve that. They need that. Ya know? But it's not just kids that need it. God knows, I need it...

I promise you this isn't to any, one.
It's just my heart.
It's not all of his message from last night. But it's pieces of it along with my heart.

It's a cruel world. Even though sometimes we don't like to acknowledge it. And anything can happen at any given moment. It's a scary thought. But not so scary with Him. Not so scary with Faith. The evidence and substance of Him in your life.

Let the Bride of Christ arise.
And show the world Light and Love.

Amen.
MLB

Blow the roof off!

My own food for thought. 2/6/11. Blow the roof off!

This is something I was thinking of yesterday when I was laying in bed...

Sometimes people don't turn to Jesus or haven't turned to Jesus because they don't realize that He is alive. Maybe alls they have ever known is a dead Jesus that just sits on the cross that hangs on the wall. Or all He is, is a gospel. A story. That just sits on paper. People don't know He is power. That He isn't some weak, watered down care bear sissy. (I like the carebears. Just trying to make a comparison here.) They don't know that He's the very first superhero that there ever was. Greater and cooler than Superman, Spiderman, The Hulk, Ironman, and all the other superheros we know and love. All of which aren't real. But we love how strong they are and how they always defeat the bad guys. Saving people. And we don't realize that Jesus is much more than that. And He is still alive. More so then when He walked the earth. Some may ask, well then where is He? That's a good question. I think when we are ready to lay down our idea of who He is or who we always thought He was, He can begin to show us who He really is. He is the image of God. God of the Universe. The most powerful being that exists. He wants to perform miracles and signs and wonders. And above all, take us to the Father. And come inside us and transform us from the inside out. It's hard to believe. I know. Because where do we see that happening? I'm here to tell you, it is. Sometimes, we have to step out of our comfort zones. Out of our mundane lives. And look. It's the enemy's desire to keep us from Him. So he will make ceilings look real swell. Or paint a picture of Jesus that is either dead or unreachable. But that's not the truth at all. 

You're probably in a room right now. Look up. There's a ceiling. And that is the limitation that we put on happiness. We settle in a place without Jesus because we think that's all there is. Because it's really all we know. We don't know what a life with Jesus is like so we aren't in hot pursuit for it. We only know the happiness that comes from the world. And we sit down and get comfortable in it. It's satisfying to us. Only because we don't know there's more. I'm not saying that certain things on this earth can't make us happy. I'm saying apart from Jesus there is a limitation. He wants us to be happy. But what He wants more, is to be a part of it. He wants to "blow the roof off" and show us what it's like living under the sky. Where there is no limit. A greater happiness and fulfilling. Somewhere deep in us longs for happiness. It's places of void. And it is His desire for us to give Him a chance. So He can come into those places and reside. It's His desire to be a lamp at our feet. Leading us into the very best destiny. Why? Because He is some tyrant that demands us to listen to Him "or else". NO!!! No! No! No! It's because He is the peak of goodness. His plan for our lives is The Best. Because He Loves us more than anyone or anything loves us. And He wants what is best for us. And reuniting with our Father that Loves us with an unconditional Love is the best place for us. He wants us safe. He wants the earth to be taken over by Light and Love and True Life. He wants goodness for us. He wants to come in and break chains that hold us down and hold us back. He wants to free us from hurts, corruption, torment, sickness, oppression and depression. Our minds and hearts have chains on them. We settle. And we don't have to. We have so much in us that He wants to awaken with His Spirit. So we can fly. We were made to fly. We don't have to stay on the ground. Or stay in a room with a roof over our head. He wants to merge with us. He wants to dance with us. Moving together. And He wants us to teach others how to fly. He wants us to help others blow their roof off. As we dance with Him, we can do that. So with writing this, I just pray and desire so much that our roofs would be blown off and that we would know what it's like to fly. An eyeopener. Seeing Jesus and who He really is and can be in our lives. A taste. Of what it feels like to merge. I pray for a fanning. Of the fire within us. Even coals that are still hot and red, but there's no flame. Fan it! Ignite the fire! Passion for Jesus! Passion to dance! And fly! And to teach others. Because what is having happiness if others can't? Who wants to hog Jesus to themselves? Then you've missed the point! BLOW THE ROOF OFF LORD! Let it be so! AMEN!

Let me end with this. Transparency. There's places where I need Him badly. Places that are void. Still areas where I wanna see Him in a greater way. I want to see much more of the manifestation of who He really is. I want His happiness. I want my roof blown off. I want what's real. I wanna dance. I want  to follow a path that leads me to more. I still settle too. All because I haven't reached Him yet. But I know as we do reach Him more and more....people will start to see the real Jesus more and more. And they'll know. That flying isn't impossible. And they'll want their roofs blown off. We wonder why people aren't turning to the Lord. Well let's do it ourselves and show them what flying looks like. Then we'll see more people turn.

Here's to flying...
-MLB

I like your heart, 2/5/11

"I like your heart: Food for thought, 2/5/11:

Bill Johnson has a facebook page. And sometimes I'll go check out what he is saying. He definitely is no man pleaser. But I love that about him. Because the reason he isn't a man pleaser isn't because he doesn't Love man. It's because he loves Jesus so much and desires so badly to see man step into their destiny in God.

There are some that I really liked a lot and hit me good on the inside.

"When we submit the things of God to the mind of man, unbelief and religion are the results. When we submit the mind of man to the things of God, we end up with a renewed mind that enhances a life of faith. The mind makes a wonderful servant, but a terrible master."

 

"During revival, hell is plundered and heaven is populated. Without revival, hell is populated...period."

 

"While God will never contradict His word, He often contradicts our understanding of His word."

 

 "Anything you think you know about about God, that you can't find in the person of Jesus, you have reason to question."

 

"Revelation from scripture must take us to an encounter with God or it will only serve to make us more religious."

 

 "It's difficult to get the same fruit as the early church when we value a book they didn't have more than the Holy Spirit they did have."

 

"Complaining is to the devil what praise is to God."

 

 "When we pursue kingdom principles above His presence we are seeking a kingdom without a king."

I found her in prison...

I wanna know me. I wanna go deeper. Beyond layers. Beyond fear. I really wanna get my hands in the dirt. I want to face the good and the bad in a greater way. I want to calm the outside of me for a time and really listen to the inside. I wanna put my ear on my own chest. I wanna know why she loves, why she fears, why she holds on, why she lets go. I wanna know why she fights and why she surrenders. I wanna know why that's easy and why that's hard. Not an introvert. Not an analytic. But some kind of explorer. Not looking out of panic. "Where is it??!!!" Just a longing to go deeper. To break the surface. A calling from within. Whispering to me....telling me there's more. It's so loud up here. It's so busy. There's a line I'm trying to find. Between suppression and not allowing certain things to invade my mind. But I know if I can quiet the loudness and calm the business, I'll find the line. Maybe I'll even draw it. I just want to know. I just want to face her. And love her better. Even when she is unlovable. Even when I find things down there in the depths that I don't like. I want to learn how to be more gentle. I've been so hard on her. She might even have more scars from me then she does from others. Maybe I need to repent for how I've treated her all this time. Someone that God Loves so much. And she knows it. But when will she begin to accept it. Maybe when I begin to stop abusing her with my thoughts. With condemnation. With false humiliation. With pressure to be perfect faster than she is capable of. How can she get up without the acceptance of His Love. How can she accept it when condemnation is beating on her. And false humiliation taunts her. Who is actually pride in disguise. How can she be "perfect" which is really "mature" without His Love? What has this turned into? A reality. That she is behind bars. And she wants to come out of prison. Didn't you know? That I put her there. That I punish her. I guess we are going deeper aren't we? I know where to start. I laid my ear on my chest. And I heard her. She wants out of prison. And I am the only one with the keys. Things will start to change as I start to change the way I treat her. As I go down with the keys and release her. She needs my love. I need to learn how to give it to her. This isn't selfish. Because how can one even begin to love others and treat others well if they don't even love themselves? So if I love others, I'll start to love me. Hard truth. But it's time to be raw.

Yours truly,
MLB